A story to a stranger
It is said that a coin has two sides same way, a person has two faces.One is his or her front face which he or she carries everyday confident,happy and the other face which is hidden.They have different reasons to hide it.Maybe scared to get exposed publicly.Its very difficult to judge a persons actual figure beyond the mirror.i know a personality who is a successful person today married to a very strong personality who made her prove wrong that single mothers have an equal self respect as the other mothers have on thankful node.She had a bitter experience in her past which she shared with me which made her so strong happily settled with her family and with her permission would like to share it in my blog.
Oh stranger I do not know you but i want you in my life.I want to tell you everything what i feel what i wish to do and what i want to become in my life. I have messed my life not intentionally but a storm in my life spoiled everything,my dreams my aspirations my goals everything. Want to tell you everything which will loosen the the zipped heart of mine .I was a girl with full of fun and enjoyment in life.Very happy go lucky person chasing my dreams with purely practical thoughts in mind. I fight for a goal had began while running behind the flow of the waves.Suddenly a big storm came which killed me and everything related to me.It was very painful and sad, felt lonely an scattered ,my life. Was ruined and finished.tried ending my self several times but was unsuccessful at all times. Kept on running away from life and the happiness and possible positive things in life. Did not have any aims or goals left out to reach. Suddenly a news made me more broken and shattered and broken news of my pregnancy. It was worst than a storm.Did not know what to do? my family, no one besides me....in spite of lots many struggle and fights managed escaping from the hell where i was kidnapped and blackmailed by the drug peddler but strange part was that could not leave behind the little human soul inside me which was very much my part too. Stranger do you understand what i had gone through my past so painful it was everything that inhuman used to do get a girl raped every night or used in front of me and tortured me by his fellow mates.I came back to my parents for that was my only place where i thought in-spite of being humiliated or insulted would at least have a shelter to protect me and the human part of me.Seeing me alone in distress many tried to wash their hands showing false sympathy but defended myself and my little one who had started growing under my parents supervision.Finally with big struggle and self motivation fought between emotions and feelings thought of giving life a second try to survive. I started working. Where ever i used to go was asked about my martial status ,replying single with a kid brought a dirty look on their faces which made me upset and helpless.Stranger i felt very weak and did not know what to do with this useless life which had no more aspirations or goal left out.Anyhow got a job for my journey to survive.As days passed on things started to take its place the little human body started going to school and my life started building itself ..Suddenly i came across a Human who one day came home with my father as a guest.He could be felt a nice human being.His visits became regular we felt that the regular guest was getting attracted to my younger sister.My family started to think about her and try getting her married off to this regular guest.the regular guest started visiting us especially took much more attention towards me and my little human body....taking her to the park,meeting me at my office or trying his best to get my attention.I was in a big confusion like what was happening with me.why was this regular guest trying to be close to me ?? was it again the same lust which men have in them seeing a single mother??thought of meeting him and telling him about past which i did but, that did not change .he finally told me that he loves me and not my sister.when i told this to my family.They were angry on me and shocked.It was as if i was a culprit or have done a big crime of he expressing his love towards me.Time passed on again with lots of changes in my schedule journey of life.One day the regular guest comes to me after office and shows me a picture of a girl his parents wanted him to marry.I was shocked but was a basic truth of life a family will always like his son or daughter to marry to good family educated girl or a boy.Again felt broken and shattered.We had been very close and it was very difficult for us to separate.My relatives and my family started knowing about our relationship.One fine day i find him missing.which made me worried i visited his place his friends said he has gone to his native place.Days passed by he did not return.Stranger its hard to tell you what terrible it was to feel that i was back to zero.my life again was gamed and this time planned.I did not have the courage to face myself. Everything was again messed up as i heard from his friends that he got married to girl he loved for past years.But i was happy for that girl who was not used as me.I should have thought that a single mother are very rarely accepted in this artificial worldly society.The word "marriage" is a very rare for people like me.Respect cannot be imagined either.The struggle for my survival again began with broken heart and betrayed mind.Could feel people watching me like an animal looking for its prey.I wish this so called modernized society would train their children good atticates for not to play with people emotion, especially people like Today i feel a sort of relief sharing my life with you because you are a stranger and i dont know you.
Oh stranger I do not know you but i want you in my life.I want to tell you everything what i feel what i wish to do and what i want to become in my life. I have messed my life not intentionally but a storm in my life spoiled everything,my dreams my aspirations my goals everything. Want to tell you everything which will loosen the the zipped heart of mine .I was a girl with full of fun and enjoyment in life.Very happy go lucky person chasing my dreams with purely practical thoughts in mind. I fight for a goal had began while running behind the flow of the waves.Suddenly a big storm came which killed me and everything related to me.It was very painful and sad, felt lonely an scattered ,my life. Was ruined and finished.tried ending my self several times but was unsuccessful at all times. Kept on running away from life and the happiness and possible positive things in life. Did not have any aims or goals left out to reach. Suddenly a news made me more broken and shattered and broken news of my pregnancy. It was worst than a storm.Did not know what to do? my family, no one besides me....in spite of lots many struggle and fights managed escaping from the hell where i was kidnapped and blackmailed by the drug peddler but strange part was that could not leave behind the little human soul inside me which was very much my part too. Stranger do you understand what i had gone through my past so painful it was everything that inhuman used to do get a girl raped every night or used in front of me and tortured me by his fellow mates.I came back to my parents for that was my only place where i thought in-spite of being humiliated or insulted would at least have a shelter to protect me and the human part of me.Seeing me alone in distress many tried to wash their hands showing false sympathy but defended myself and my little one who had started growing under my parents supervision.Finally with big struggle and self motivation fought between emotions and feelings thought of giving life a second try to survive. I started working. Where ever i used to go was asked about my martial status ,replying single with a kid brought a dirty look on their faces which made me upset and helpless.Stranger i felt very weak and did not know what to do with this useless life which had no more aspirations or goal left out.Anyhow got a job for my journey to survive.As days passed on things started to take its place the little human body started going to school and my life started building itself ..Suddenly i came across a Human who one day came home with my father as a guest.He could be felt a nice human being.His visits became regular we felt that the regular guest was getting attracted to my younger sister.My family started to think about her and try getting her married off to this regular guest.the regular guest started visiting us especially took much more attention towards me and my little human body....taking her to the park,meeting me at my office or trying his best to get my attention.I was in a big confusion like what was happening with me.why was this regular guest trying to be close to me ?? was it again the same lust which men have in them seeing a single mother??thought of meeting him and telling him about past which i did but, that did not change .he finally told me that he loves me and not my sister.when i told this to my family.They were angry on me and shocked.It was as if i was a culprit or have done a big crime of he expressing his love towards me.Time passed on again with lots of changes in my schedule journey of life.One day the regular guest comes to me after office and shows me a picture of a girl his parents wanted him to marry.I was shocked but was a basic truth of life a family will always like his son or daughter to marry to good family educated girl or a boy.Again felt broken and shattered.We had been very close and it was very difficult for us to separate.My relatives and my family started knowing about our relationship.One fine day i find him missing.which made me worried i visited his place his friends said he has gone to his native place.Days passed by he did not return.Stranger its hard to tell you what terrible it was to feel that i was back to zero.my life again was gamed and this time planned.I did not have the courage to face myself. Everything was again messed up as i heard from his friends that he got married to girl he loved for past years.But i was happy for that girl who was not used as me.I should have thought that a single mother are very rarely accepted in this artificial worldly society.The word "marriage" is a very rare for people like me.Respect cannot be imagined either.The struggle for my survival again began with broken heart and betrayed mind.Could feel people watching me like an animal looking for its prey.I wish this so called modernized society would train their children good atticates for not to play with people emotion, especially people like Today i feel a sort of relief sharing my life with you because you are a stranger and i dont know you.
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